I watched Spanglish 3 times for the past 2 weeks. What a beautiful film..
One of the scores really attracted me.. DEEPLY!
I love how it escalates from 1.20 onwards, to a stand still.. and then an unexpected line of melody that takes my breath away…
It’s just beautiful.. It’s what I’ve been listening to lately whenever I am feeling low.
It’s only week 5, I already feel soooooo tired.
Well, I have nothing much to complain. I really enjoy learning, maybe not so much for contracts which is really not my thing at all.
I love to develop ideas… talking about stories.. Even though the plot hits me back in the brain, I still love the the ability to create.
I screwed my pitch this Monday. I really thought that it was a cool concept but I just lacked the brain capacity to develop the whole story. According to Mano and Chiam, the reason why they asked so many questions was because the project is interesting.
Seriously… For all my life, I have never really developed a suspense thriller. The last one I did was a short film. A FULL LENGTH FEATURE KILLS every brain cells that I have.
Thankfully, Andy said I just need to create the alter world.
So I guess this weekend will be spent busily creating the world in my suspense thriller. And also start thinking about my distribution plan for senior project.
Gosh… Sometimes I feel that I can’t contain all that is inside of me.
I have never thought that I will reach this far… I am working hard not because of the assignments that I have to deliver, but a genuine urgency of wanting to deliver this project.
It’s just one of the few things that I want to make in life.
I am really thankful..
I wish people can trust me and back me up for who I am instead of question my decision and action when something happens.
If you see something that is out of the blue… Reserve that benefit of doubt and understand why before you question..
At the very minimum…
I’ve edited many different things. Trailers, Corporate videos, commercials, animatics, stillomatics, promos, reality TV, documentaries but nothing beats the kick that I get in editing Narrative.
I never have the guts to direct and my only chance at directing is probably manipulating the footage the way I want it.I like the ability to piece story together.. And how the rhythm and pace determines the destiny of the story.
I am re-editing Eysham’s “Thieves.” It really reminds me of Do’A. I remember how Do’A launched me into the world of editing. I spent days on that project, re-cutting different versions till all of us felt satisfied.
I have to admit that editing “Thieves” is probably the most stressful job ever… Well, second maybe..
I had to make sure that I forget everything that I’ve watched before. Somewhat reconstruct it and re analyze the story.
Seriously.. as stressful as it is, It’s a Kick!
After viewing the footage, understanding the ‘limitation’ of the project, I really feel that Khien did a great job editing the original cut. Within a short period of post given by the school, what he had was pretty solid.
I really want to do more Narratives. Maybe I will want to try directing. I think it will be a huge milestone for me even if the film fails big time. Get over the fears right?
Honestly, I haven’t been feeling all that “good” for the last few weeks.
I feel that I am not prepared for school at all. I wished I looked into the trade articles, did some revision before school started. I am not sure if the questions I asked in class made any sense. Incoherent thoughts and tired body.
My confidence has been going downhill. I am not so sure about myself. I can’t trust how I feel these days because the emotion department is going haywire.
Events, things and people… I don’t even know where to start!
I woke up this morning… in tuned with how I felt inside. I am lost. I don’t have any inspiration, no revelation and no motivation. It was just work… work… worries and worries..
I think I might have been a little bit too hard on myself. I got distracted and focused on the wrong stuffs instead.
Look to God! Go back to God!! My heart screams..
So I shall pick myself up, dust it off and start over again.
(though physically, I think I am suffering from a flu.. Haha.. )
I bought this album last week… I have to support who I like right?
As usual, it blew me off.
Most of the songs talk about love relationships. “Try Sleeping with a broken heart” talks about how one deals with loneliness. “Un-thinkable” talks about the one giant step a girl has to take, the fear that she has to overcome. “Distant and Time” talks about relationships that are separated by the two elements.
But the lyrics were cliche or passe… The lyrics transcend. It’s as if Alicia knows everything that you are going through. The words used are so precise.
My favorites: Unthinkable, Love is Blind, Doesn’t Mean Anything and This Bed.
Then again, I really like every songs in the album. Can’t find any fault with it.
Empire State of Mind Part II
It gives me the goosebumps.
And this is Try Sleeping with a Broken Heart
Unthinkable Live on AOL session
I really like Unthinkable because it talks about things that we deem forbidden. The MV tells the story of a White falling in love with a Black.. The barriers they have to cross.. TOUCHING
Yes… second week of school. Still loving every minute but my body is not loving it together with me.
I don’t mean to sound old but my body can’t seem to keep up with me these days.
I snooze for at least half an hour even after a 7-hour sleep. My right feet is hurting. I yawn in class.. I just feel tired lar!
I guess it’s because I didn’t really have the chance to let my body rest before my new semster started. I worked till the very last Friday before school started on Monday.
Not many pressing deadlines yet.. But the impending amount of work (especially those contracts) makes me worry a little.
Oh well.. I tend to worry a wee bit too much. Shall cut myself some slack and enjoy the ride. After all, these processes are something that I’ve grown to love very much.
Pray for strength and grace then.
Not that I can’t wait to get all these over and done with but.. Just 9 more months of intense focus and concentration, and all of us will be ready to take on the world.
Hello World!
Senior Year!!
Love every minute of it.
Sometimes I feel like every part of me is pulsating with electricity whenever I think and talk about my Senior Project.
It’s as if I am carrying this thing inside my heart and it’s waiting for the chance to explode in every possible ways.
The sheer imagination of how it will look spurs me on.
What I need now? Guts… Lots of it to make it eventual.
Dream it, speak it and make it!
LIFE ACCORDING TO JANICE 