Of Stress, Sister’s Fever and Unending work.

I don’t know why in the midst of all the homework madness, I have the urge to tidy my room.

For example. Last Tuesday. I was super tired after leader’s meeting but the first thing I did when I reached home was to clean my dresser and my desk.

Threw almost all my cosmetics away, am only left with my foundation, Anna Sui Eyeshadow, Loreal Blusher and eye liner. I threw all the film catalogues from HK filmart this year, notes, files, newspaper and what not.

With so much work and an edit to complete, I have the urge to tidy my wardrobe now. I think cleaning is my newest OCD.

YES.. Stress! My pitch didn’t go well yesterday. My brain wasn’t working. I was so worn out by SHOOTs. I didn’t have time to recover and there I was pitching to a group of people.

To make matters worse.. I had a friend, or at least I thought was a friend, who gave passing remarks.

On normal days, I would just ignore but the exhaustion in every part of my body seemed to magnify whatever he said 10 TIMES in my brain. SO I asked if he could stop, and he was just SUPER RUDE TO ME.

Honestly… I was seriously offended. Ugh…

It was perhaps the most depressing pitch. Then again, it’s one of those rejections that I have to take before someone says yes. Was rather emotional yesterday but, thank God, I got over it when I woke up this morning (even though dreamt I about it!) And regarding that friend? I got over it but I have to admit that writing about it right now did bring back those hurtful moments.

I need a break.. A long break. Woke up early this morning to collate my research for finance paper but I had to bring my sister to the doctor. At that point, I felt so tired and so stressed out that I almost wanted to cry.. But I guess.. Exhaustion just kinda make everything look bigger that what can be handled.

Yes.. Of Stress, Sister’s Fever and Unending work.

I need a break!

Busy like a bee

Crunch time again..

Friday: Internet Comm Shoot + Transient Shoot

Saturday: Work till 11pm

Sunday: Transient Shoot till 10pm

Monday: Pitch that gives me the butterflies

THEN POST PRODUCTION FOR THE SHOOT. Sometime it really sucks to be an editor for school project. You have to be there during Pre-Production, Production and Post-Production. Grrrr.

I am looking forward yet dreading.

In the midst of all these, Act 2 of my script, finance paper and preparation for another PITCH PRESENTATION on the following week.

THEN.. FINALS!

Not the time to give up now!

At least for now.. I know I am not failing my Production Rights and Contracts Paper.

Stop Coughing!

Of all the common sicknesses, coughing sucks every bit of joy out of me. It busts my lungs and does funny thing to my throat. Absolutely no fun. 

My throat was on-off for the past few weeks.. Those late hang outs really killed it. Next thing I know, I am plagued by dry cough, which according to me, is the worse thing that can happen. 

And not to mention, finals is just 2 weeks away.

Stop Coughing Jan! I really need to recover soon. Hate to battle the cough in cold December. I want my Christmas!

I really hope it’s not an act of suicide by committing to so many things right now. I just realize that my schedule is probably too packed… It’s been a while since I felt this way.. Investing all of my energy into everything everyday. Sure, it’s exhausting but I am also curious to see how far I can go. 

Then again.. With the Cough.. It’s probably not the wisest thing to do. 

So here we go again. STOP COUGHING!

Still

“Be Still”

This is what I tell myself whenever I am trapped in urgent situations.

I quote, “A constant compromise between thinking and breathing.” Yes, it’s those situations that fry my brain and heart big time.

From a person whose adrenaline never seems to go down, being still is perhaps the hardest thing to master.

Yet, it’s in those split seconds, that God’s peace act as an anchor for my soul telling me that it’s alright.

That’s right.. Be still.

The reason why I love Chapman

I am constantly thankful to God that I went to Chapman University. It was not what I expected, it was more than what I expected. Everyday is an exciting journey of taking a step closer to what’s conceptualized in my mind.

Whenever I feel my confidence leaking, I am surrounded with friends and lecturers who believe in me. They encourage me and challenge me to go further with that I have. I love it when ideas popped in my brain during lectures. That feeling makes me want to listen for more.

I am just very thankful that I am planted in a place where I enjoy every process of learning. Going to school can be a dread but thankfully, there’s something that I love and that keeps me going.

There are days when I am just so intrigued and inspired that my mind just keeps churning all the different possibilities of what could have happened.

That’s why I love going to school.